August 19, 2008 / Devotional, Pure / Author: admin / Comments: (0)
Are you in tune with God’s purpose for your life? In order for your dreams and His plans to live in harmony togehter, you have to cooperate. If you are not on the same page with Him, ask God to show you what He has in mind and to give you the courage to follow His plan. He wants to make the journey with you toward finding the purposeful life for which He destined you.
There are days that I feel like I am so out of tune with God that I can’t be more out of tune without being a Christian. I tend to be “focus” oriented. When I focus on something, I tend to go down the slippery slope of obsession. Right now, I am obsessing about how bad I feel, and everything is centered around that. I am a stand still in my life, and it is all an weight issues. In the past, I have been able to get motivated to try one plan or another, and usually, I am at such a desperate point, that I make it work. At least for awhile. While i am making it work, then other things fall into place, the fog lifts, and I am able to give God my best, give myself the best, and life is good. I am so far away from that point right now.
I like to organize things, and be half way organized (when I’m not overwhelmed). I feel like God has a purpose for me with those talents, and he has put me in places that used these talents. He is still putting those opportunities in front of me, but I am slamming the doors because I refuse to put myself in a position of failure. I know — with God I can do anything. But, right now, I have — not God — but me, myself, and I, have put myself in such a physical state that I can’t stand for more than a couple minutes at a time, walking across the room is about all I can do. Shopping is out of the question. The few times I do venture out and go into a store for just a few items, I end up regretting it. The weight thing is also playing with my mind. I’m in a fog. I can’t concentrate. I can’t seem to get things together. Going through the motions at work, and a bit of blogging seems to be all I can do these days. What a sad, sad shape to be in. And most definantely not where God wants me to be.
I have a consultation appointment Thursday with a WL surgeon. I am praying that this is in God’s plans and that it will be the answer to many many prayers. I pray that it turns my life around, which then puts me in a state of mind that is open to God’s plans, where I can be in a physical state that will allow me to do what it is that He wants done.
August 18, 2008 / Bible Study, I Am / Author: admin / Comments: (1)
LESSON 1
1. Are there any circumstances or relationships in your life where you can see God has intentionally placed you? What do you perceive may be at stake if you do or do not speak out for Him? Because I don’t step out of my comfort zone very often, and I tend to let my world not go very far beyond my own four walls, I have a hard time seeing God place me anywhere. I am a church secretary, and how that all came about, I tend to think God placed me there. I do believe that I am called to set an example, as well as stay on task to keep my “boss” (our minister) organized and reminded of things that he needs to be or places to be. How I answer the phone, or follow through on a task may make all the difference in the world to someone, even though I am not aware of it. Could this be my calling? I have always been a “behind the scenes” kind of person, not wanting public acknowledge of what I have done or accomplished. This includes many church events as well as VBS and camp. Can one not be a “behind the scenes” kind of person for God? The trickle down effect? Maybe I’m not directly responsible for leading someone to Christ, but that I set the circumstances in motion that led the right person to lead them to Christ. Does that count?
2. Can you honestly describe yourself as a woman with a ‘yes’ in her spirit? If not, what keeps you from this? lack of confidence in who I am and my abilities. Fear of saying the wrong thing, or not making sense. Or not being able to give the right answers, or any answers back when asked questions, which then makes me look stupid in the person’s eyes that is asking. It comes back to this setting a good example.
3. Do you recognize any circumstances in your life which could be described as an ‘unrecurring event’? Have you ever said ‘no’ to one and watched God use someone else instead? Vacation Bible School. I said no for the first time in many years, and God used someone else, and I felt very much out of the loop. Like I was letting God down.
4. Are you in an emotionally and spiritually healthy place? If yes, how are you using this freedom to minister to others? If no, what do you feel is holding you in your Egypt? This would be a most definate no. I know that my weight is holding me hostage, keeping me physically, and mentally in a place that is not a good place to be. This then ties into also not being spiritually healthy because I just do not have the energy to fight the fog and be the organized and disciplined person I know I can be.
July 28, 2008 / Bible Study, I Am / Author: admin / Comments: (0)
Chapter One: I AM - Your Beauty
Lesson One - Just In Time
Lesson Two - Beautiful to God
Lesson Three - When Life Doesn’t Work Out Like You Planned - Part 1
Lesson Four - When Life Doesn’t Work Out Like You Planned - Part 2
Chapter Two: I AM - Your Sufficiency
Lesson Five - I Was
Lesson Six - West Side of the Wilderness
Lesson Seven - Who Am I?
Lesson Eight - Instrument for Wonders
Chapter Three: I AM - Your Fame
Lesson Nine - A Set Up for a Show Up
Lesson Ten - Keeping it in the Family
Lesson Eleven - Fist Shakers vs Faith Takers
Lesson Twelve - A Face With the Name
Chapter Four: I AM - Your Portion
Lesson Thirteen - The Purpose of Promise
Lesson Fourteen - He Brought Us Out To Bring Us In
Lesson Fifteen - Full Circle
Lesson Sixteen - Wide Open Spaces
July 28, 2008 / Just A Thought / Author: admin / Comments: (0)
By nature, I tend to be impatient, and want things ..ah… well… now. Even though it may not be what is best of me, I tend to be rather impatient. This is something I really want to work on, to lean on God about, and turn it over to Him. Its time that I start doing things in His time. Thus…the reason for this blog. I want to explore my thoughts, my reasons to why I do some of the things I do. To participate in some group studies, maybe blog through a book or two that focuses on Christian Living and getting closer to God. All — In His Time.
